Can't Believe It...
06.23.08 (9:55 pm) [edit]I can't believe that this day has finally come. One of the scariest day I have ever imagined in my entire life - seeing you in love again and happy with someone else. I don't know how to describe how I feel right now. I know my heart aches but somehow I manage to fake it. Nobody knows that I'm hurting. I tried to live my life happy and at peace. I admit that I've done stupid things before that led me into this misery. Yes, I have lied and pretended to be someone else I'm not. Please don't judge me. It was the only way I know to make myself happy. It was one of the happiest days of my life. I know things will never be the same now. I just can't believe that I'm still breathing after knowing that you're in love again..I just can't believe that I'm still living a life without you.
Stubborn
06.03.08 (12:48 am) [edit]I really don't know how to describe how I feel right now. The pain keeps coming back. Why do I have to feel this way? I know I should get a life now. I know what to do but my heart is too stubborn. I'm sick of this feeling. I dont understand..I want to disappear now and be gone forever..I want to forget this feeling! God, why are you making me feel this way. This is too much..I want to move on..I want to get over things..I want a new life..Please help me..I dont feel good. I feel so helpless. I feel so hurt inside. My broken heart is not mending. I thought things will get better in time..but its been awhile now..I still can't forget you! You sucks..I am failure!!!!!!!!